Self Demise

***This probably won't be a song, due to it rather low note, but it's good to get shit off your chest***

The Self Demise.

I got the call from an old friend
Haven't heard his voice in months
At first I was ecstatic
Ao hear his familiar tones
Then he told me the reason,
The reason why he called
...They found you... hanging.

Why didn't you call
And tell us that you were thinking?
Why'd You keep it to yourself
When you know your friends were listening?
But I guess thats it.
You didn't know who to rely on
And who would help
So you went it alone
And so you took it alone.

Before it happened you called,
A month before your last mistake
You seemed happy, and complimented me
On the friendship me had made
It was all true, and I felt the same way
I guess I shouldn't have gone away
Then mabye you would have stayed
Mabye i could have helped.

Why didn't you call
And get the help you were needing?
Why didn't you try
To fight those demons within
Why couldn't you stop lying
And let us know things were fucked up
Why didn't you let us know?
And why couldn't we see it?

It all sinks in, when the dust settles
It wasn't my fault
It wasn't their fault
It was your fault.
But we're the ones punished.

The worst thing was,
when the day had come
to lay you to the ground
I was nowhere to be found
As country towns are hard to leave
So I was all alone when I grieved.
...just like you.

* For Chris H.

The Anon.

We are the ones who start your life
We are the ones who stop your life
We know everything
But We are nothing

We are the ones kept through dark
waiting for our time to shine and taking off our damaged shackles
We are the ones you fear most
Looking through your own mistakes and waiting for our chance to tackle.

We are the meek, thats inherited your fate
We are the deadly toys you've made
Most are following the path you've laid
But we've laid our own plans
We've planed our own lives
WE won't live yours for you.
Even If it means we're in the shadows
Even here our lights will shine

We are anonymous (we are the Anon.)
We'll all band together
to Stand and fight
against all your might
You won't believe us
You will see through us
Like darkness through the night
Thats when we'll strike

Our plans are simple
We have no purpose inside your light
So we'll make our own outside of it
We'll live and try and fight
We won't follow you're plight
We'll make our own lives

We are anonymous (we are the Anon.)
We'll all band together
to Stand and fight
against all your might
You won't believe us
You will see through us
Like darkness through the night
Thats when we'll strike

You're lives seem so nice
But it's not our slice of heaven
We need to find ourselves
in the shadows of the world
and not in your grind
and not on your terms.

Our lives are here
Our Lives are now
And we can't live them
If we're trapped by treason
We will rise
we will shine
if you give us absolute freedom.

* This is a song, and it will be released shortly.